Sickle Cell/Sick Ass Hell

 

I see a few more people died of Sickle Cell. And as I ignore my pain I can’t help to wonder if my denial of the Healthcare System is the reason I’m still alive and well.
I may go crazy if I truly imagine Calvin Deal screaming in that cell. One more pill will hurt more than it eases the pain, so I rebel.
I don’t want the disability Mama, that’s what almost killed me the first time. Just give me my Healthcare so I can find a dispensary this time.

I see a few more people died of Sickle Cell. Beautiful melanized individuals born to experience this sick ass hell.
Wailing as quietly as they can in the middle of the night, so no one can tell. No, you can’t help.
How can I possibly eat or drink anything through this agony?
All I need is a pill or four!?! Please nurse!?! One shot more!!
Doc, I believe as well a higher dosage would help. No, I’m gone work like everybody else, gotta do for self.
Until doing too much of anything becomes bad for my health.

I… see… a few more died From Sickle Cell. The pain is always there. So stop asking how I fell. No don’t stop asking, I need more help! I don’t know what kind, besides food, water,  and the way a nurse smells.
I just fell this time. There’s mostly pain on my mind.
Keep your pump, patches and ports. They’re only death traps of a sort…

I see a few more people died of Sickle Cell. And as I ignore my pain I can’t help to wonder if my denial of the Healthcare System is the reason I’m still alive and well.
I may go crazy if I truly imagine Calvin Deal screaming in that cell.
One more pill will hurt more than it eases the pain, so I rebel.
I should have said I don’t want the disability Mama…
Being a patient is killing us Mama…
Today, someone died of Sickle Cell.

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